Really don't know what to say or do... But the matter of fact, my heart really feels like it has torn into pieces, really painful. It was a last night affair, my heart woes out to this friend of mine. I have always treated him as a great friend all along, but now he's fallen and has hit out at me, I do not really have the mood for anything. If I could forsake all the fun just to bring this brother back, I don't mind. If my character is as fragile as a typical female's, I'd have broken into tears and burst out crying. Never I'd expect the situation could be so extreme, I just feel so helpless. God! Please help me find a solution for this. Even my mind is in a total mess now... What should I do? He has apparently stabbed me at the back, I don't blame him for that, but just that his sinful desires has gotten overwhelmed and blinded him. It has really open up my point of view that we often take quiet time too casually and don't make it something serious. But actually if we miss that out, with the sinful influences of the world, we'll definitely fall out and be sucked into the world. I know I can't stay like this forever, but I just can't bear to be in this reality. I can't take it anymore, people. I'm not emo, it's just that I'm totally hurt.
*Update (10:48PM): Just came back from church, camp meeting and prayer meeting. Had dinner in church too, we called in an order of 'Wonton Mees'. Then felt better after prayer meeting I guess, I'll try not bring the hurt emotions and affect others and myself. Guess all I could do is pray. Amen. Later got FA cup semi-finals, Arsenal vs Chelsea. Will watch. Ok, that's all. Bye.
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